We’ve been rather quiet of late. Let’s just say our tiny princess has become a little bit of a handful. . . I’ve no idea where she gets it from!
I thought I’d come out of hiding. Today seemed like a good day to do so. Today is🌈 National Rainbow Baby Day 🌈
As you all know, I’m a huge believer in talking about our struggle to carry a full term baby. I fully believe that by talking about the conditions that so often plague our chances of having children, we are raising awareness. We are helping others to cope and we are breaking the silence.
Loss of a baby at any gestation is a real life changing experience. The pain is unbearable at times. It does eventually settle down. The pain does eventually disappear. A harder one to shake is the sadness. The sadness tends to linger. It would vanish and yet all of a sudden, completely out of the blue it would reappear. Like a rain cloud hanging over our heads.
It does, at times, feel like nothing will ever cure your sadness. It feels like that rain cloud is stuck above your head. It’s miserable.
I want to share a secret with you. The rain cloud never fully disappears. It’s always there and it’s always a part of you. However, every now and again the big, bright, beautiful sunshine appears. It shines down on that cloud and a Rainbow appears.
My point is this. Try not to let that sadness define you. Allow the sunshine to brighten your day.
Esme is our sunshine. She has well and truly brightened our lives. Our very own Rainbow, healing our hearts and stealing our sleep.
To those, like us, lucky enough to have a Rainbow baby, celebrate them today. Celebrate them every day.
To those who are still on their rainbow journey, keep allowing that sunshine in. Allow that sunshine to shine in on your sadness. Your time will come and your heart will heal. You never know, if you keep looking up, you might just see a Rainbow.
Love as always,